You put the dream in my reality

I’m back home, and at work of all things. We came home at like 3am, and I had to get up at 5:35 for work, needless to say I was very very sleepy when I got to work this morning.
My trip was pretty good. Saw some people I hadn’t seen in a while, and I got to relax which was much much needed.
I’m still glad to be back home though, only another 3 weeks or so till my trip with Ali, that is if he can even go.. I got a text message from him when I was in Sweden, he’d ended up in the hospital.. I think they sent him home, but I haven’t heard anything from him since Monday, so I’m getting a little worried now. I hope he’s okay - I’ve been trying to call him for 3 hours now and his phone is turned off
A friend gave me a WoW account with a 60 or 61 priest that I’m going to transfer to the server where my bff plays. I don’t know if I’ll be SUPER active seeing I still play FFXI but I figured it’d be fun to mess around with B at least.
4 more hours of work!

I’m off to Oslo (plane leaving at noon from the airport here), then I’ll have 5 hrs there and then I get on the bus to go to Sweden. I’ll be back on Friday or something..

It’s been about a week and a half since I last had a “proper” meal and probably about a week since I’ve had a good night’s sleep. I think I figured out why I have been so depressed and sad lately though, and all the stuff going probably just hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. I’m normally a pretty content person so it’s a rather new feeling to be so unstable as I have been lately. I think my trip to Sweden will do me good, I’ll get a few days of peace away from everything and I really think that will help me get some perspective on it all.
Working evening shift today and tomorrow, my poor co-worker broke his arm so of course he can’t work. Poor guy.
Ali and I still don’t know where we’re going but we have plenty of time to decide still!

I’ve been so tired lately and I’ve been working a lot. Going to Sweden on Saturday though, my boss gave me 4 days off next week - I only work on Friday Much needed mini-vacation for me. Ali and I were supposed to go to Prague September 27th-30th, but on the 28th they’re celebrating the making of the Czech republic and mostly everything will be closed So much for going there, we’re working on finding another destination though. We’ll see where we end up.
Been feeling really depressed and sad lately. I’m not sure why.

I’m so mad at myself. It turns out Mark and I didn’t send in all the right forms when we applied for my fiancee visa So I’m really really hoping (and crossing my fingers!) that instead of flat out denying our application, where we’d had to reapply and it would take even longer, that US Immigration will just request more evidence, and we can send the rest of the paperwork… I can’t believe we didn’t complete all the right forms. Good news though is that our case is in the system, and I have a receipt tracking number (for the fee we paid) and I’ve made an online account, which should be updated once anything is done or said.
I miss Mark, but I’m not as emo anymore.. Talked with him yesterday and he called me the day before and he should have internet again tomorrow or so, so then it’ll be much easier to keep in touch.
Apparently I’m working ALL next week too, which will be the third week I work all 5 days - and I’m only supposed to work 4. Getting trained on the phone operator switch board though, which should make for three short and somewhat interesting days at least. I’ve noticed that I’ve been really tired lately though.. I pass out around 9-10pm, and if you know me, you know that’s very unusual - when I work I typically run on 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I even managed to oversleep this morning, for some reason when I went to bed last night I set my alarm for 6:35am, instead of 5:35am, which is when I usually get up.. I was an hour late for work, but it was all good, except everyone at work made fun of me for it But in a friendly way so I really didn’t mind.
Oh, big CONGRATULATIONS おめでとう＾＾ to Jason and his Reiko! They got married 2 days ago in Japan. Jason - I hope your immigration process goes well!

I went out last night to Ali’s after talking to Mark - his flights had all gone okay. Had fun with Ali, I had about half a bottle of vodka but was nowhere near drunk =/ Maybe I’m too emo to be drunk right now, haha.
I didn’t think I’d feel this sad or depressed, everything seems pointless and it’s like I have no goal because I don’t know when I’ll hear back from USCIS. It feels like I’m about to give up..
Back to work tomorrow, I work all week, which is probably a good thing - if I stay busy maybe it will take my mind off everything..

It was really hard saying bye to Mark, and watch him walk through the security check at the airport.. I’ve been saying how in a way it’ll be nice when he went back, I’d get space and time to myself, but yet today at the airport I didn’t want him to go.
This sucks. I came home from work, and I knew Mark was gone but it still made me feel so empty not having him here.. I feel lonely and lost, and I miss him a lot. And he’s only been gone for like 8 hours… These months will feel like years.

Mark is leaving today I was supposed to have the day off work, yet here I am at work. I managed to get 3 hours off though to go with him to the airport. I don’t want him to leave, because I don’t know when I’ll see him again, and that’s what sucks the most about this visa process. It wouldn’t be so bad if I knew I’d get to go back in, say 2 months, or 3 months, but the fact that I really have no clue just sucks. So yeah, don’t be surprised if I’m emo for the next week or so

Back to work today I’ve been at work since 7am, and I was only supposed to work till 2pm, but my boss called me last night and asked if I could work till 6pm.. And yes, that’s 11 hours, which can be quite long, especially without a proper break and all.
I’ve been having a headache every day for the past two weeks or so. I can’t really think of anything that would be wrong, so I’m going to assume either too much sleep, or not enough sleep, and long days. Advil’s been my best friend haha.
The course I went to on Saturday was pretty good - we had fun. My co-workers are pretty cool. Yesterday my parents took Mark and me out to dinner - chinese It was really good and we all came home full!
I was supposed to be off on Friday to take Mark to the airport, but it looks like I gotta work.. My boss said I could go early though so I could at least make it to the airport.. Still working on getting the day off though haha.
Ali and I are going to Prague on September 27th! It will only be for 4 days, but it will be a mini vacation for me. What’s better than 4 days in a nice city with a good friend?!

Went out tonight with Ali We had a few drinks at Gossip (the place was empty but that wasn’t reallya bad thing) and then we had kebabs haha.
I should be asleep cause I have a heart starter course (we have to know how to use a heart starter) at work tomorrow from like 10am till 2pm, which means I have to be up by 8:30 =/ Oh well, I guess I’ll go on like three hours of sleep, nothing new!
I go back to work on Monday, and as nice as it’s been having all this time off and such, it’s really kind of boring..